Monday, 17 December 2012

on the start to the way up

OK so lets get something happening. I will post daily from now on. So I have some guidelines that I am going to work on, these are not always food related, but are about getting my life on track.

Mon, Wed and Friday
-Non spending days

1 hr physical activity with the kids
food planned the day before
2 ltrs water
10 mins of meditation every day.

An amazing friend of mine sent me a message after my earlier blog and she asked me about what has worked previously and what hasn't and what I am prepared to do so here is my lists.

things that have worked
6 meals
no fat
organized in advance

haven't worked
calorie counting
same things all the time

what am I willing to do
be organized 24 hrs in advance
daily exercise of some sort
cappuccino, only when with another person
treat once per week

Ok so tomorrow
I will take Jhett for a walk to the park in the afternoon

breakfast scrambled eggs with avocado and 1 toast
snack strawberries
lunch salad with tune
snack apricot protein ball with rice cake with cottage cheese pesto and tomato
tea hamburgers with salad
snack berries with yoghurt

I will be taking pics of my food on instragram so please follow if you want to see what I am doing

I have downloaded a head space app which is a meditation app, I will do day 1.

Now because I need to change my focus.

I am grateful for
  • my family
  • amazing friends
  • my strength to try again.
What I like/ or am proud of, about me
  • My desire to strive for better
  • My eyes

Sunday, 16 December 2012


Well it has been a few weeks of the same old shit, I say I want to do it, and I still eat crap. I am struggling and I mean really struggling. In the last week I have had a back injury and also had another tooth out. My body feels like it is not mine and that I am not connected to it.

There is always some reason why I wont start today and currently it is Christmas, but honestly it could be anything.

Food is my big problem and I struggle with what to do to control that.
calorie counting
  • I don't like numbers and they scare me, so it makes me anxious
  •  It doesn't seem to bother me if I go over
  • I never really know what level I should sit on
  • To do it properly I would have to weigh stuff etc etc and that seems like hard work to me
Paleo/Clean eating
  • Coming up with ideas
  • portion size

In general
  • what to eat and when to eat
  • portion size
  • variety

I am so full of excuses, and yet I just don't seem to be able to push past them. I don't understand why it is so hard to get something you actually say you want.

feeling lost and vulnerable, I am not overly sure how to start or how to get out of my funk.

One of the girls posted this on facebook and I really liked it there are so many things that move me, this is just one of them

I am still trying and I am still looking, I will get there.