Sunday, 16 December 2012


Well it has been a few weeks of the same old shit, I say I want to do it, and I still eat crap. I am struggling and I mean really struggling. In the last week I have had a back injury and also had another tooth out. My body feels like it is not mine and that I am not connected to it.

There is always some reason why I wont start today and currently it is Christmas, but honestly it could be anything.

Food is my big problem and I struggle with what to do to control that.
calorie counting
  • I don't like numbers and they scare me, so it makes me anxious
  •  It doesn't seem to bother me if I go over
  • I never really know what level I should sit on
  • To do it properly I would have to weigh stuff etc etc and that seems like hard work to me
Paleo/Clean eating
  • Coming up with ideas
  • portion size

In general
  • what to eat and when to eat
  • portion size
  • variety

I am so full of excuses, and yet I just don't seem to be able to push past them. I don't understand why it is so hard to get something you actually say you want.

feeling lost and vulnerable, I am not overly sure how to start or how to get out of my funk.

One of the girls posted this on facebook and I really liked it there are so many things that move me, this is just one of them

I am still trying and I am still looking, I will get there.

1 comment:

  1. It's such a shitty time... you can do it, and you will do it - when you are ready.

    I hope you realise I'm saying this to myself as well as to you...while I'm sitting here eating my fourth slice of pizza at our work 'International Party Day'...